Wake up

The silent cry.
When you wake up in the night.
Only the sound of the rain beat on your window.

I just want to close my eyes.

Not to think.
What's future? What's going to happen?
No, I just don't know.
How far this journey is going.
How this should end.

I just want to open my eyes.

Not pretend I've lost.
How did it happened? Where those memories gone?
No, I just don't know.
How long will this feeling last?
How this should this end?

I don't want to lose.

You.

Oh Hoy! Postcrossing

Hello everyone! Today I'm going to share you guys a special hobby I'm picking up lately.

Tadaa! Postcrossing!

Actually it is mainly about sending postcard to other people you don't even know all over the whole world!

Through this process, you can get to know their culture, exchange views and enhance your global knowledge!

Interchange your interest and stories with people from another part of the world is so special! Think about how you can understand every place you longed to go and just by a mere RM0.50 (Malysia's international postcard stamp rate), your personalized postcard will fly long distance to the hands of another person and make one smile.

I am overjoyed when I first heard this, from my friend, Michelle. Michelle has exchange postcard with many people and think that I might enjoyed it as well so ask introduce me about it.

As easy as you can imagine, just like ABC! Hahaha.
First, register yourself at the website, write your address and request another one for the person you are going to send.

A Sample Postcard

Second, prepare your postcard and stamp.
Third, write everything you wanted with the code given and Wala! Slide it inside the postbox and wait for it to be registered as send.

Similarly, the person who requested your address will send another postcard to you too!

Try it if you are intersted too!
Happy postcrossing! =)


Link: http://www.postcrossing.com/
 

Live Life To The Fullest

 
I got this quote from a local production programme. =)

This year, will be a tough year for all my dear friends, same to me, Form 6. Ahhhh *faint*

After these past three months I realize something which matters very much to me, that is :

" Love yourself first. "



Everywhere I see people who don't love themselves, they wanted to love others, but they don't understand the fact that they should love themselves FIRST.

I know I'm the same kind of person, who don't really love my own self. Be kind to myself, perhaps that's what make me so impossible to sleep at night? Insonmia.

So, this year, I'm going to promise myself.

Magic voodo, ha! Just joking, some little declaration: 
"Starting from today, I will love myself more and more.
 Starting from today, I will be kind to myself.
 Starting from today, I will keep promises to myself and don't break them. "

Stay calm and live life to the fullest! =D

Link: http://www.wikihow.com/Love-Yourself

A Decision To Make

BORED.

Is this the kind of life that I wanted, dreamed of and longing for so long before SPM?

Surely NOT.

Before that I was having lots and lots of promises to myself and yet still I'm wasting all the time given on non-beneficial programmes.

Okay, now I know that actually boredom can cause serious damage on me. I just couldn't stand it! The feeling of doing nothing at all feels awkward. How I wish I can just take a bucket of water and splash it all over me. (Wake up girl!)



Monologue:
It is March now, how much time do you still have?
A year? Half-year?

ONLY 3 MONTHS to go! (to Form 6) (Man, that's creepy :( )

After that you will NO TIME AT ALL.
You will get back in school and keep studying, so why wasting your time by doing nothing?
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Other than that, what troubles me the most is the decision of selecting subject to study in Form 6.
I always dreamed of becoming a veterinarian. 
I love small animals such as dogs and cats; of course big animals too, like horses, elephants and giraffe.
However, I'm very aware of my family financial status and it will be a big burden to my parents if I persue my dream with private education sector.





There is a idiom in English saying, "If there is a will, there is a way."
It is still a possiblity of reaching my ambition through government education, that is through Form 6 and later to UPM ( Universiti Putra Malaysia ) veterinarian bachelor degree.



But, there is a hiccup, rumour saying I will need to get atleast 4 flats aka 4 As in STPM studies to get even considered to be selected!
(Please be aware that I am a non-bumiputera)

And, getting 4 flats in STPM is as hard as you can imagine. Throughout the history, normally about 3 to 4 students in my high school got 4 flats in STPM, but they are mostly Physic students!

Furthermore, there is NO ONE can promise your placing in that university even you got 4 flats!

Hearing to this, you can imagine how does it pull my face down to a :( .

So I was adviced to consider the Second option.
That is to be a Physic-student.

I know that I have a nor hate nor like relationship with my dear Physic here. And it should be give more advantages to me as the Engineering field is wider and not so specific compared to Biological sciences such as medicine, pharmacy, bio-medic,  dentistry and stuff.
As a plus, studying Physic requires more analytic and problem-solving skill compared to memorizing skill which is commonly used in studying Biology . I don't have a good memorizing skill.
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I didn't want to make a decision that I will regret my whole life.
Just to be sure, I made an appointment with my school counsellor, Pn. Lee.
She is a helpful and friendly teacher, she gave all her attention to me by listening my thoughts first before giving me some useful advices. After a short brief talk about my ambition, she decided to give me a personality test. (Holland Code Quiz)

The result came out to be very similar to what I've expected.
I got I, S and C.
Which stands for Investigative, Social and Coventional. However, I got high marks for other Holland Code too.
The conclusion Pn. Lee gave me is I am more to Biology rather than Physic. Oh-oh!

Hmmm... In the end, I will still need to make this decision myself. Perhaps I just need to have a little more time to explore and discover more about myself.

Hope for the best.